48 Hours of Triumph and Failure

In writing on this blog, to those who are traversing the multi-faceted journey of weight loss and altering to a healthy lifestyle, I think it is important to detail successful moments, but also those that are challenging and produce failure. 

Yesterday was one of the best days I have had in such a long time. If you want to know about the best thing, you can see it on the WOD CrossFit board. I started the morning feeling a hurt and sore, and pushed through it and won a handstand contest, which was a proud moment, then I had a great day at work, had one of the best law classes i’ve had this semester, had so much fun at fitness skate, and went out after with some of the girls and had great conversations – I even tried carrots, which are my least favorite food on the planet. I was trying paleo, so it was quite a feat for me. 

Today was one of the worst days I have had in such a long time. I had a meeting with my advisor about joining the PhD program, and got a lot of great info, but tons of choices about where and what I should do next, which is positive to one degree, but making the decision about what to do next is stressing me out. At work, I am going to be picking up some extra responsibilities, which again, is positive. I love my job, it is my passion, it is just a change I will need to adapt to – it will be a little extra money too, which will help. On top of that, it puts a little more stress on the independent study that I am working on (and behind in), which will get done, but the motivation for the last week, given all of the mental changes has been difficult. My room was messy today, which always puts me in a bad space, and I needed to laundry like no one’s business. Day 2 of paleo proved to be a severe disappointment. I put my clothes in the dryer, and I headed to the store to get chocolate chips and milk, and ate way too many. I ended up feeling like crap. I threw the rest of it away, went inside and folded my clothes. It took forever, as my mental state was off. I was feeling down about binging and feeling burdened by the day, all on my rest day, so feeling great after working wasn’t part of the day. 

I came home and put laundry away, I have been listening to music, and trying to move past the days events and strategize about tomorrow. I am feeling a bit better now, and I know tomorrow will be better. I detail this because there will be bad days, binge days, psychologically warping days, stressful days of work and decisions, family, and whatever else, but you can’t let that stop your overall life and progressive goals. Tomorrow is a new day, i’ll start the day off with CrossFit and go from there. I am going to take tomorrow by the horns and make it matter and put today behind me, remembering how far I have come. 

So, if you are having one of those days of failure, sleep it off, and do not let it sidetrack you, it is PART of the process, not something to throw you off track. Remember, this is a life change, and life will have snags in the road. Don’t let the shortcomings of today make tomorrow never happen. 

Keep on keepin’ on. 

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