I visited some friends yesterday and we were talking a lot about bodies, fitness, health, nutrition, and the psychological and physical aspects of weight loss and health. I was looking back at some old photos to show them what I used to look like, and just had these moments where I really felt disconnected from the person I saw in the photos, which is good in a lot of ways. That person still is inside, and some days they are stronger and I am weaker, but I would say that I have fought and the war is mine. Sometimes it is hard to dissociate being proud of my accomplishments and feel completely lost at how I ever let myself get to that point. Feeling how I do now about fitness and health and just going out there and living life, a lot of time was wasted, time I can’t get back, but now I live for today, and the bright future I know that I have. In thinking about how I feel and look so completely different than I did just 2 short years ago, the tenets of CF come to mind, constant, functional, and intense. All of my changes have been like this. CrossFit has really helped me realize a different level of my fitness and allowed me to really grasp how to continue being healthy even after I lost the weight and to become stronger, faster, and fitter.
Anyways, this is a long winded way to just present this photo that I found, and one I took yesterday. It feels kind of crazy that I look so much different (and better) several years after this other photo was taken. So, if you don’t believe you can accomplish your goals, everyone who has lost weight or made great changes in their life had challenges, obstacles, doubts, and fears. It shouldn’t stop us from becoming the people that our potential says we can be.